Monday, December 26, 2011

Restarting A Series

Ah yes the end of year, a time for reflection and ten best lists. Well screw all that let's go back to the stories of trans* pioneers shall we?

Roberta Cowell, WW II Spitfire Pilot, race car driver and the first known British male-to-female transsexual to undergo sex reassignment surgery. This was all the way back on 15 May, 1951 just short of her 30th birthday. This occurred two years before Christine Jorgensen's surgery in Denmark. Roberta, now 90 is still with us and I hope happy and well. She wrote her autobiagraphy,Roberta Cowell's Story, now sadly out of print but still available used.

The incredible courage Roberta Cowell displayed transitioning publicly when she did is to be admired and saluted.

Friday, December 23, 2011

Full Diclosure

I'm Natasha Yar-Routh, it says so right on the masthead. But as some of you know that is not my legal name, that is Barry Scott Routh. You see being gender queer for me means having two lives.

I'm one life, the one I'm coming to prefer, I'm Natasha the person you know from this blog and on twitter. In the other I'm Barry. A married, well not man but person, with a job and all that.

Increasingly my worlds are blending into each other so starting here I'm going to be as open as I can about this. For various reasons my legal name will most probably never change even though I identify as Natasha. Of course I don't look like a Natasha do I?

Not really that fem am I? Yet I feel very fem most time.

Ah well enough self confession tonight, sleep well all of you.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Why I Hate Birthdays (mine)

The day before my 13th Birthday John Kennedy was shot, the day after Oswald was shot. On my 29th Birthday I saw "Quadrophenia" was deeply depressed for a week. This was while I was dating Lyne, through our relation back a few steps. Close to my 50th birthday I learned my father had lung cancer. he died about two months latter. Around my 59th birthday my mother had the fall that put her in intensive care, she died May of last year.

Not an inspiring record is it? I think you can see why I've come to really hate my birthday and the month of November in general.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Goodbye To Therapy

Well despite the fact I'm still have depression, though in remission, and am dealing with gender issues I'm going to have to give up therapy. Simply no more money for it. Dr. Cooper had to drop Antheum/Blue Cross because they were screwing her over. Besides if they had their way I would just be a well drugged cypher.

So for the next three or four months at least no therapy for Natasha. I wonder if I can survive or will fall back into deep depression?

Thursday, October 13, 2011

On Being Gender Queer, Part Of A Series

Being gender queer means living with na certain level of uncertainty, at least it does for me. I never know where in the gender cloud I'll be when I wake up. Will the the person looking back at me in the mirror be definitely male, a very effeminate male, a old butch woman or a proud middle age matron? Any of these and a thousand others are possibilities for me.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Some Night Music

Some nightmarish night music but these are nightmarish times.

Yes there are ever more uprisings against the status quo, but are they too little too late? The austerity brigade still rule the roost in the U.S. and Europe and now there are cracks showing in China's economy.We are still pumping carbon into our atmosphere at accelerating rates and permanently altering our weather.

Not that I'm a prophet of doom, the world isn't ending any time soon but things are going to get a lot more interesting not to mention surreal.

Oh and Halloween is coming

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Nothing To Say

Really nothing at all to say tonight, so here is 21st Century Schizoid Man by a string quintet.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Night Thoughts

So tired but must write. Random and incoherent thoughts flit trough my head.

The completely secular wording of the U.S. Constitution putting a lie to the 'this is a christian nation' nonsense spouted by the right.

How much I love what Estrogen has done and is doing to me.

How much I love my chosen queer family.

How frustrating my ADHA has become.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Pleasant Night Thoughts

I’ve had enough with being angry and raising my blood pressure so something pleasant for tonight. The Occupy Wall Street movement is spreading, even unto Bakersfield and if the Occupy movement has reached hartland palces like Bakersfield it's spreading it's roots deeply indeed. The movement has been successful enough to seriously wory a Republican congressman. I find all this very hopeful, yes I know the Occupy Wall Street movement has it's flaws but it's evolving in the right direction. Real change always comes from below not from the top, this is real change we can believe in.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

This Makes Me Angry

Take a look at this ultra-misogynist t-shirt. This is the sort of crap that pisses me off. It is such a perfect example of rape culture, de-humanization of sex workers  and general misogyny. It actualy pissed me off enough to write the following letter to them,

Real congratulations on having one of the most offensive t-shirt designs ever. Your 'If you have sex with a prostitute without her consent is it rape or shoplifting' shirt manages to trivialize rape and sexual violence and dehumanize sex workers all in one offensive package. Way to go fuckwads.

I know I should be polite to get my point across but that is hard to do when I'm this angry. That shirt showes you as the hateful misogynist cowards that you are. I don't think you'll have the good graces to actually stop selling that piece of crap shirt and even fake apologize but one can always hope.

I would like to encourage what few readers I have to send their own letter of comment to these jerkwads at

A Very Late Friday Random Thirteen

A trip through my mind via the random songs thrown up by iTunes in shuffle mode.

The Sea King by Hawkwind
Departure by The Moody Blues
Catch My Fall by Billy Idol
Coming Back To Me by Jefferson Airplane
A View To A Kill by Duran Duran
The Hell Of It by Paul Williams
Back In Business by AC/DC
TVC 15 by David Bowie
I’m Coming Home by The Deviants
Angel by Iggy Pop
N.S.U. by Cream
The Apparition by Iron Maiden
Drowning Man by Duran Duran

Thursday, October 6, 2011


Once again it’s late at night, I’m awake and need to write. So what shall we paly with tonight? How about desire, that kind of ties in with the Cenobites of The Order Of The Gash we were discussing last night. The Cenobites were all about desire. Desire is, you desire what you desire. You can control the gratification of your desires but if you desire the tight young stud across the hall or the taught surfer chick two doors down (or both) then you desire them. You might not act on your desires, I would be too shy to speak to either of the people in our example, but the desire will remain. Trying to deny the desire exists will just make you crazy. You can chose not to act on your desire because the action would hurt the object of your desire but that means acknowledging your desire and working through it. Above all desire IS.

Wandering Through My Mind

My but this blog has become personal hasn’t it? I really do mean to comment on the issues of the day but I keep putting off writing until late at night. So let’s go exploring through the decaying edifice of my mind shall we? I seek sensation as a masochist, thus I use a Cenobite from Hellraiser as my icon. Knowing exactly what awaits me I would still happily solve the Lament Configuration. Yes I do want to experience the extremes of sensation to overwhelm and transform me. The flesh as artistic canvas fascinates me. This does not mean I seek annihilation, I seek transformation. I want to be a technological Phoenix. In some ways I already am, I’m using Estrogen and Spiro to alter my body and my mind. A bio-technological Phoenix, that’s me, rising from the ashes of my old life.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Just Another Random Thought

It occurs to me that I didn’t mention that I’m an atheist in my re-introduction. I’m an atheist because I noticed that what little evidence there is for gods and goddesses, more hearsay really, is equally valid for the lot of them. The problem is the claims made for the nearly 1,000 gods and goddesses are contradictory. Quite simply they can’t all be true, but they can quiet easily all be false. Factor in that we have well tested scientific explanations for much of existence and there is no need for any supernatural beings running around causing trouble.

A Quick One Before I Sleep

Bored now. The Punch and Judy show that is politics in this country is idiotic and completely ritualized. Everyone knows their role and plays their part. The best actors get the lead roles which is why Reagan was so successful. He may have been a ‘B’ actor but he was far better than the ‘C’ and ‘D’ actors he was up against. Real politics is being played out in the board rooms and in the streets. He puppet show in side the beltway will become increasingly irrelevant.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Some Random Late Night Thoughts

I’ve lived a fairly privileged life. That that life has not been overly successful is mostly my own fault aided by my ADHD. So I really have no reason to be depressed, but it doesn’t work that way. No matter how successful or fulfilling your life is depression can gut you and leave you a wreck. It’s what my Friend Alexander calls an invisible illness.

These are illnesses that do not have any obvious external symptoms. Things like depression, anxiety and ADHD. These illnesses are difficult to diagnose and difficult to treat. There is also a tendency by those not suffering from them to dismiss them as somehow not ‘real illnesses’. They urge people to ‘man up’ or ‘get over it’, this is spectacularly not helpful. These are real and debilitating illnesses as I have learned the hard way.

This brings me to another thought, just how much I hate the ‘your too sensitive, why so angry?’ line. This is usually uttered by some privileged twit when called on some hateful remark or joke he just made. The privileged one is trying to de-legitimize the anger felt by the person calling him on his oh so casual, meant no offence remake. This is not just a problem of the right, I see plenty of casual trans-misogyny from progressives as well. So the next time someone calls you on some remark or joke stop and actually listen to what they have to say, you may learn something.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

A Reintroduction

Thanks to my depression I do tend to abandon my blog for long periods of time.

I’m back for the moment and thought I should reintroduce myself. I’m a proud, semi out, gender queer trans woman. I’m on a regime of Spironolactone to reduce my testosterone levels and Estrogen patches to help feminize me. I’ll never have passing privilege as at 60 I’m really too old for any major changes to my body. But I do love the mental and emotional changes that Estrogen has brought.

So I’ll be blogging about whatever cross3s my mind which will include more about me.

Cheery Bye for now.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Random Again, 13 Again

Some music as picked by iTunes DJ;

All She Wants Is by Duran Duran
Whip It by Devo
Chains by Iggy Pop
Young Girl Blues by Donovan
No Sense of Crime by Iggy Pop & James Williamson
Sweating Bullets by Megadeth
The Krush Brothers by Duran Duran
Lola by The Kinks
Cries In The Night by W.A.S.P.
Voices In The Sky by The Moody Blues
Eye On You by Billy Squier
Morning Will Come by Spirit
Willie And The Hand Jive by George Thorogood & Destroyers

A short look inside my mind

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Out From Behind The Mask

I just celebrated a year on Estrogen. In addition I’ve been on Spiro for about three months and have had my testosterone knocked way down. So I’ve decided to step out from behind the mask of maleness. I started off my anniversary by having my best friend Alexander shave my beard. This was recorded and a You Tube video will be forthcoming. For now here is a bad photo of the woman behind the mask

Saturday, April 16, 2011

The U.S. Will Tolerate No Dissent

Prerna Lal is a immigration activist who the U.S. Government is trying to deport for the crime of being an effective advocate. Below I am reporting her blog entry on this travesty of justice.

My name is Prerna Lal. You may know me as one of the founders of DreamActivist or from the Immigrant Rights blog at where I have worked for the past two years to stop the deportations of several members of our community. I serve a board member for Immigration Equality and I was the recipient of a Changemaker Award at the South Asian Americans Leading Together (SAALT) summit this year. I am writing to you because I am currently sitting for my first-year law school exams at The George Washington University, and already, I'm facing the trial of my life. The United States government has decided to prosecute and deport me away from my family, friends and community. They sent me a notice to appear for removal proceedings last week.

I just paid $800 to the State of California in business taxes. And I'm expected to appear in an Immigration Court in San Francisco for this trial. That is some heavy taxation without representation. To make matters more complicated, my entire family is American and they have done nothing to deserve this treatment.

My grandparents were U.S. citizens. My legal resident parents brought me here when I was a minor. I grew up in this country. This is my home.

It make no sense for the government to spend thousands of dollars and several years in litigation to remove me from my home. In response to this atrocity, my friends have created a petition to top immigration officials to stop this ridiculous prosecution.

Our goal is to reach 5,000 signatures and we need more support. You can read more and sign the petition here:

Your support is invaluable to me. Please sign, facebook, tweet and reblog the petition so that I can keep my family together and continue making worthwhile contributions to this country

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Anarchy In Action

In Tunisia and Yemen mass demonstration and civil disobedience have driven these countries presidents out and are reshaping the very nature of their governments. In Egypt the issue is very much in doubt but the government goon squads haven’t driven the people from the streets yet. All this has been done by a lose group of activists willing to put their lives on the line. Welcome to anarchy in action.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Another Late Night Thought

Nothing profound, just annoyed out of my mind by the splint on my right hand. Wanting to get the thing off so I can take my Mini out and blast through the back roads with the CD at maximum volume. I can always count on loud rock and roll and driving way the hell too fast to make feel better.

A Not At All Random Thirteen Because I’m Fucking Pissed

Megadeth – Angry Again
Alice In Chains - Angry Chair
Judas Priest - Judas Rising
Anthrax - Belly Of The Beast
Black Sabbath - War Pigs
The Clash – White Riot
The Clash - Revolution Rock
Danzig – Godless
Green Day - American Idiot
Guns 'N' Roses - Out To Get Me
Iggy Pop – Kill City
Megadeth – Symphony Of Destruction
Nine Inch Nails – With Teeth

Monday, January 31, 2011

Thoughts Of Sorrow, Thoughts Of Pain

We who don’t fit into societies gender box have a painful road to travel. Weather we are cross dressers, transsexuals or gender queer we are all tarred with the same brush. We are ‘faggots’, sexual predators, and deviants, its not even worthy of being considered human. Boring isn’t it? And that is even sadder, this has all been said again and again and is sill true. Even our progressive ‘allies’ think nothing of using our very identities as a source of putt downs and cheap jokes. Fuck ‘em all, I’m angry and ready to put the boot in. Deeds not words are what I want now. If you work to help me and mine then I will call you friend and ally, if not then may you rot in hell.

Friday, January 21, 2011

The Friday Random Thirteen Continues

Fire In The City – The Deviants
Perversion – Rob Zombie
Different World – Iron Maiden
Crossfire – Stevie Ray Vaughan & Double Trouble
Love Voodoo – Duran Duran
Gloriana – Michael Moorcock & The Deep Fix
Johanna – The Stooges
Summertime – Big Brother & The Holding Company
The Otherside – Afro Celt
Before They Make Me Run – The Rolling Stones
Commotion – Creedence Clearwater Revival
When The Whip Comes Down – The Rolling Stones
Green Instrument – Afro Celt

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

A Last Thought Before Sleep

So it seems even odds rather Obama will defend Social Security and ask for a tax increase or sell Social Security out with benefit cuts and increasing the retirement age. If Obama goes for option twp it will put him to the right of Ronald Reagan. That there is even a chance of this, much less even odds, should convince any one that Ted Rall is right in The Anti-American Manifesto that we need a revolution.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

A Short History Lesson

Have you ever heard of the Opium Wars? The first Opium War was fought from 1839 to 1842. It started because the British had a balance of trade deficit with China until the British started exporting opium to China from their Indian plantations. Understandably the Chinese objected to this and when the arrested British opium dealers the British went to war and won. The second Opium War included the French who wanted in on the profits. The US was late to the game but after we had finished stealing North America from the First Nations we were ready to move out into the world so we came up with the Open Door Policy which meant everyone got a equal share of the spoils. And get in on the spoils we did. Many of the famous and respected of Yankee families got their start in the Chinese opium trade . Remember this the next time some politician blathers on about the ‘Drug War’.

A Little Music To Close The Night

If we’re in Hell we’re going to burn

While we’re here we should havesome sympathy for the devil

Monday, January 17, 2011

Random Thoughts As I Try To Sleep

For some reason I have been having trouble sleeping so you get the joy of my disconnected thoughts, lucky you.

I am a coward on many levels, not so much physical as emotional. That is why I am out to only select people. Not that I would ever deny who and what I am if asked but I have barely transitioned so it doesn’t come up. Most of the reason for my oh so slow transition is my fear of confrontation with those close to me. See, a coward.

I have a friend who has reached his limit. Too many people asking too much of him. He has done much for me and I feel useless to him right now. And so I make it about me again, fuck it all I want is to take his pain away and I can’t.

I despair at my fellow humans stupidity. We can all be stupid at times but right now we seem to be having a monumental outbreak of stupid. In the midst of recovering from a worldwide recession these cretins want to implement austerity. Yes that’s just what fragile economies need pulling a few billions out of them and knocking thousand into unemployment. Apparently they do not read history or they would know FDR made the same mistake moving to austerity just when the economy was picking up steam and sending back into recession. Now they want to repeat the error on a global scale. Hang on it’s going to be a bumpy ride.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

A Few More Reasons To Celebrate

I quite liked listing successful trans people so here are a few more.

Genesis Breyer P-Orridge gender queer pandrogynous musician, performer, artist and wrecker of civilization. Sylvia Rivera latina activist, Stonewall rioter and founding member of The Gay Liberation Front. Without her there would probably be no TBLG rights in this country. We should honor her by destroying the Human Rights Campaign. Billy Tipton jazz musician and band leader.

Quite simply there are a lot of trans women, trans men and gender queers who have fought the long odds and managed to carve out careers and families in a hostile world. Now we want the right to live our lives openly as who we are, we won’t give up and we’re tougher then you can imagine.

Friday, January 14, 2011

The Friday Random Thirteen Is Back

Tuff Baby – Iggy Pop
Mass Production – Iggy Pop
Black Magic – Slayer
Sirius – Clannad
Break It Up – Patti Smith
Come Go With Me – The Beach Boys.
Sexy Boy – Kinky Boyz
Broken Arrow – Buffalo Springfield
Nobody Gives – The Kinks
Iron Head – Rob Zombie
Crazy Love – The Allman Brothers Band
The Jean Genie – David Bowie
Safe European Home – The Clash

On Being A Un-Person

In the dystopian world of Oceania the worst fate was to become a un-person. Not only did you disappear you had never been. All record of your existence was erased.

Trans people face this fate all the time. If we are lucky our deaths are reported as ‘man living as woman’, if not we are ‘gay men found in woman’s clothing’ or ‘masculinly dressed women.’ We are buried under the wrong name with the wrong gender pronoun. Our lived existence is erased, who we really were is gone and we become un-person’s. We are forced to fight for our trans sibling’s identities so they can be remembered as who they were not as some bigoted relatives wanted them to be.

I just became aware of a nasty new turn to this erasing of our chosen identities, a greedy relative trying to re-write the narrative of a life while the person is still alive albeit gravely ill. Catherine Ryan Hyde is trying to appropriate Gender Warrior Leslie Feinberg’s identity. Please read Feinberg’s impassioned post and reblog it. Fight the un-person movement directed at trans people.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Looking For The Bright Side

I’m looking for the bright side of life but having trouble finding it right now. Chrissie Bates murdered and then defamed by the media. Three of my trans sisters murdered in as many days in Honduras. The constant slander that we are all sexual predators who will use any legal recognition of our rights to assault women in bathrooms. Not really a lot of bright side there.

But then I remember those of us who have not merely survived but triumphed. Victoria Kolakowski who made history by becoming the first out tras woman elected to the bench. Lynn Conway groundbreaking computer scientist. Jamie Fenton who helped ot your mind by designing video games. Jeffrey Catherine Jones award wining artist. Vladimir Luxuria Italian actress and politician. Caroline Paige RAF fighter pilot. Parinya Kiatbusaba Mut Thai champion, actress and model. All these very successful trans women and many more are a inspiration to us all. They sow we can not merely survive but triumph. A very bright side indeed.

Another Double Murder

Chrissie Bates was stabbed to death in her Minneapolis apartment this week. Then she was murdered again by the Minneapolis Star-Tribune . Their headline proclaimed ‘Man who lived as woman found slain in Minneapolis apartment’.She wasn’t a man living as a woman she was a trans woman. The Star-Tribune decided to ignore the AP stylebook and ungender her in death.

You might wonder why I even bother to write about this since it so regularly happens to trans women in death. That is the very reason I am writing this, because it must stop. For the most part the only coverage trans women and trans men get in the media is in the advent of our all too frequent murders. The media by ungendering and othering us help perpetuate this cycle of violence. After all it really isn’t murder of the person your killing is an it and some sort of freak. So I would ask that the media treat us with respect in death with the hope that those of us still living might be seen as human and allowed to get on with our lives. A probably vain hope but a girl can dream.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

As I Slip Into Unconsciousness, More Late Night Thoughts

Madness and mystery surround us all. We are walking chemical reactions, how much of ours lives are just chemical processes? Trans men and we trans women often chose to alter our nature with chemicals, specifically those very powerful things called hormones. They change our entire bodies and minds. I have changed the balance of the chemical reactions that make me me. I am now a different person, a Phoenix rising from a chemical fire

Sunday, January 9, 2011

As I Slip Into Unconsciousness

So it seems the AZ shooter was another broken human who was uneducated, lied to and betrayed by the society of selfishness around him He finally reached the breaking point and blew up killing and wounding all around him. There are a lot more like him out there and the selfish idiots keep putting the pressure on them and breaking of any relief valves. I fear there will be more explosion

And So It Begins

I said there would be blood and now a district judge mas been assassinated and a congresswoman if fighting for her life with a head wound. This is the ‘second amendment solution’ the tea baggers were touting come to bloody life. Don’t think that this is a climax, it is still just the overture. The forces roused now will brook no set back however minor. They will react with rage and violence at any successful opposition. I fear war has come down and the hounds of hell unleashed.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Thoughts For A Dying Empire

An occasional series, which I hope, will illuminate the twilight of the American Empire

Today three from Big Bill Haywood and a bonus from a random I.W.W.  member.

For every dollar the boss has and didn’t work for, one of us worked for a dollar and didn’t get it.

A liberal is the guy who leaves the room when a fight starts.

The barbarous gold barons do not find the gold, they do not mind the gold, they do not mill the gold, but by some weird alchemy all the gold belongs to them.

You ask me why the I.W.W. is not patriotic to the United States. If you were a bum without a blanket; if you had left your wife and kids when you went west for a job, and had never located them since; if your job had never kept you long enough in a place to qualify you to vote; if you slept in a lousy, sour bunkhouse, and ate food just as rotten as they could give you and get by with it; if deputy sheriffs shot your cooking cans full of holes and spilled your grub on the ground; if your wages were lowered on you when the bosses thought they had you down; if there was one law for Ford, Suhr, and Mooney, and another for Harry Thaw; if every person who represented law and order and the nation beat you up, railroaded you to jail, and the good Christian people cheered and told them to go to it, how in hell do you expect a man to be patriotic? This war is a business man's war and we don't see why we should go out and get shot in order to save the lovely state of affairs that we now enjoy.

Yes I am an Anarchist and a I.W.W. mwember

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Shocked, Shocked I Am!

It seems the much-ballyhooed figure of $ 100 Billion the Republicans were going to cut from the discretionary budget is now non operational. On and Tax cuts do not count against the deficit anymore. The Republicans have nothing against spending so long as the money goes to the right sort. The sort who bankroll the little slime into office

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Atheist Quote Of A Random Day

A continuing feature of this blog brought to you by just another atheist.

But I found it more and more difficult, with free scope given to my imagination, to invent evidence which would suffice to convince me. Thus disbelief crept over me at a very slow rate, but was at last complete. The rate was so slow that I felt no distress, and have never since doubted even for a single second that my conclusion was correct. I can indeed hardly see how anyone ought to wish Christianity to be true; for if so the plain language of the text seems to show that the men who do not believe, and this would include my Father, Brother and almost all my best friends, will be everlastingly punished.
And this is a damnable doctrine. Although I did not think much about the existence of a personal God until a considerably later period of my life, I will here give the vague conclusions to which I have been driven. The old argument of design in nature, as given by Paley, which formerly seemed to me so conclusive, fails, now that the law of natural selection has been discovered. We can no longer argue that, for instance, the beautiful hinge of a bivalve shell must have been made by an intelligent being, like the hinge of a door by man. There seems to be no more design in the variability of organic beings and in the action of natural selection, than in the course which the wind blows. Everything in nature is the result of fixed laws. – Charles Darwin

Monday, January 3, 2011

Random Thoughts Before I Slip Into Unconsciousness.

Back in L.A. again the place I grew up in. It takes a particular kind of evil madness to thrive in this place. We attract the broken and the dreamers from across the country and then feed on their broken bodies and shredded souls. This song who’s opening line was spoken by a homeless black man real does say it all

Who's the most overrated actor?

Neal Patric Harris, a talentless little annoyance

Ask me anything

Are things getting better for transgendered people or is it kind of a topsy turvy rocky road towards acceptance and equality?

Right now no. We have legal protection in 12 states & that has been true for a long time. Every attempt to expand our protections to new states has failed no thanks to Gay Inc. The only small step forward was the Federal Hate Crimes expansion that did include us and given how often we are murded that is something.

Ask me anything

Sunday, January 2, 2011

The Final Trek

Some background, My eldest Husky Freki died form Lymphoma just before Thanksgiving. Since the 28th of December I have had a splitting headache and decreasing appetite. I begin to feel that Freki just went on ahead to scout the way.

Through the snowy waste we move toward the distant mountain range. Freki lunges through the snow breaking a trail for me to follow.  As we push beyond the tree line I pause sweeting in my light grey fur lined leathers to survey the gently rising open land beyond. Just as Freki and I start up again Geri breaks from the forest behind us. I knew she would be close behind us, just not this close. We push on through the snow, Freki leading and Geri circling us both. Ahead is a dark spot that slowly resolves into a tall figure wearing dark leathers. It is directly in line with the path Freki is breaking for us. We will have to negotiate passage here I believe.

Just a fragment from my mind. 

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Because You Can Never Have Too Much Cthulhu

More Random Reviews Of Stuff

Because an ‘injury to one is a injury to all’ I was happy to see DADT repeal go through and the court fight against Prop 8 continue successfully. What I was furious and angry at was the total failure of the Employment Non Discrimination Act to even get to committee much less out of it. This failure has Democratic and assimilationist cis gay fingerprints all over it. After unprecedented Congressional hearings at which trans women and trans men finally got to speak for them selves nothing happened. The Democratic leadership (looks at fat white boy Barney Frank) didn’t even bother to release proposed language for the bill. The HRC and its clones exerted exactly no pressure on anyone to advance the bill. The only time ENDA was mentioned after that was when trans activist managed to generate enough pressure to get a few ‘real soon now’ noises out of the Democrats and HRC. After the pressure dropped there was only silence.

ENDA is way more important then repealing DAT or DOMA, ENDA is a life or death issue for many of the TBLG community. In 29 states it’s perfectly legal to fire people or deny them any services because of their sexual orientation. In 38 states there is no protection for gender identity or presentation. That means that people are in danger from dying in the streets because they can’t access any services or get a job. This is not theoretical; it happens to trans women with depressing regularity. So the cis gay ‘activists’ and Democratic ‘leaders’ that have done squat to advance ENDA, you have blood on your hands scumbags.

Atheist Quote Of A Random Day

A continuing feature of this blog brought to you by just another atheist.

A triple feature for 2011

All thinking men are atheists. — Ernest Hemingway

Lighthouses are more helpful then churches. — Benjamin Franklin

Say what you will about the sweet miracle of unquestioning faith, I consider a capacity for it terrifying and absolutely vile. — Kurt Vonnegut

Are The Stars Come Round At Last?

Given the state of the world I wonder if the stars are finally right and Great Cthulhu has at last risen from his tomb?

A few images to ponder over;