Monday, March 2, 2009

A Bit Of Random Association

My gender identity is very fluid. Looking back on my child hood I realized I moved from stereotypical boy things to stereotypical girl things with ease. That stopped in middle school but that’s another story. The point is I still feel very gender fluid, I sometimes think I could be happy as a slightly feminized eunuch. It would let me present as butch or femme as the mood took me. As for sex, I like giving head and would probably be quite content as a passive sex toy. Ah but there are other times when I want to be the revved up leather bisexual biker chick; fucking men senseless and then leaving the poor saps to go cuddle with my cutie. Hell I need to be a pretty little shape shifter to keep up with my shifting gender identity.

Nature verses Nurture is a debate that should have long sense ended, it is both with environment thrown in for good measure. We are complex and unique creatures who do not fit well into little boxes.


Anonymous said...


I just recently stumbled upon your blog and I've been reading through it a little bit, insanely curious about your life. My name is Ty, I'm 19 and identify as genderqueer. I was born biologically female however I find that I much prefer the masculine part of my personality and prefer to be identified as a boy, however I never really felt the need to transition.

My boyfriend is a transman and he pressured me for a long time to transition before we came to the conclusion that I was genderqueer (I suppose I had just been searching for the right word) and he loves me just the way that I am. He's recently been reaching out to the transgender community and finding support, something that I haven't been as lucky to find. People seem to think that I'm full of bullshit because I want to be called by masculine pronouns and yet I don't want to completely transition, and after reading through your blog I was really hoping that you could give me some insight or a point of view, as I'm not sure what I should do.

I don't like my feminine side but I don't reject it, either. I just don't know how to make other people understand that.

Anyways, I'll stop rambling.

Best Regards,

Natasha Yar-Routh said...

Hello Ty,

You might want to join the Yahoo Group Genderqueerrevolution ( There are more of us around then you might think.

I fully understand not wanting to transition, while I do want to do hormones that's as far as it goes. I do not want to lose the masculine part of me even though I prefer the feminine. I like moving in the spaces outside the gender binary.

Anonymous said...

Well, I sent in an app so we'll see what happens. I'm going to keep spying on you in a creepy bloggerstalker manner, kthnx.

Thanks for pointing me in a positive direction.