Fuck All

I think I may have lost my best friend. I don’t know for sure yet but there is a good possibility. I just quit a mailing list he started that I was a moderator on out of pique, despair or I don’t know what.

Damn, I’m getting chocked up again. Is this sad excuse for a life worth the trouble? Hell is I know, all I do know is that I’m crying, sad, lonely and really afraid.

My but this has taken a personal turn.