Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Just Another Random Wednesday

Sometimes I do feel very much a phony, I do little in the way of gender presentation to present myself as anything but male to the world. I still feel gender fluid/queer with a strong tendency toward being female but I am too cowardly to actually do anything about it. Well cowardly and afraid I’ll wreck what’s left of my marriage. But I know of other people who have gone for it despite obstacles greater then mine. So I wonder if I’m really a gender queer trans-woman or just going through some sort of weird mid-life crises. These are the sort of thoughts that creep into my mind when I’m lying alone in my bed at night.

1 comment:

Laura said...

I don't think you have to do something. It is up to you and what you feel. I think that it doesn't matter how you present to the world, what matters is if you are proud and happy with who you are. If you are the world outside will respect that ( most of the times) - that's part of living life to the fullest ;-)