Just Another Random Wednesday

Sometimes I do feel very much a phony, I do little in the way of gender presentation to present myself as anything but male to the world. I still feel gender fluid/queer with a strong tendency toward being female but I am too cowardly to actually do anything about it. Well cowardly and afraid I’ll wreck what’s left of my marriage. But I know of other people who have gone for it despite obstacles greater then mine. So I wonder if I’m really a gender queer trans-woman or just going through some sort of weird mid-life crises. These are the sort of thoughts that creep into my mind when I’m lying alone in my bed at night.