More Random Thoughts

My aging brain still seems to be working so some stream of consciousness writing. I'm going through one of my periodic 'I should just give up and de-transition' moods. It's not a serious one this time, I know I can't give up estrogen. But still the pressures of life in a cis centric, hetro-normative world  means that the thought of de-transitioning is always in the background of my mind. It's always there even though I know that it would lead to suicidal depression. It isn't easy being trans but it sure beats the alternatives.