Thoughts Of Sorrow, Thoughts Of Pain

We who don’t fit into societies gender box have a painful road to travel. Weather we are cross dressers, transsexuals or gender queer we are all tarred with the same brush. We are ‘faggots’, sexual predators, and deviants, its not even worthy of being considered human. Boring isn’t it? And that is even sadder, this has all been said again and again and is sill true. Even our progressive ‘allies’ think nothing of using our very identities as a source of putt downs and cheap jokes. Fuck ‘em all, I’m angry and ready to put the boot in. Deeds not words are what I want now. If you work to help me and mine then I will call you friend and ally, if not then may you rot in hell.

The Friday Random Thirteen Continues

Fire In The City – The Deviants
Perversion – Rob Zombie
Different World – Iron Maiden
Crossfire – Stevie Ray Vaughan & Double Trouble
Love Voodoo – Duran Duran
Gloriana – Michael Moorcock & The Deep Fix
Johanna – The Stooges
Summertime – Big Brother & The Holding Company
The Otherside – Afro Celt
Before They Make Me Run – The Rolling Stones
Commotion – Creedence Clearwater Revival
When The Whip Comes Down – The Rolling Stones
Green Instrument – Afro Celt

A Last Thought Before Sleep

So it seems even odds rather Obama will defend Social Security and ask for a tax increase or sell Social Security out with benefit cuts and increasing the retirement age. If Obama goes for option twp it will put him to the right of Ronald Reagan. That there is even a chance of this, much less even odds, should convince any one that Ted Rall is right in The Anti-American Manifesto that we need a revolution.

A Short History Lesson

Have you ever heard of the Opium Wars? The first Opium War was fought from 1839 to 1842. It started because the British had a balance of trade deficit with China until the British started exporting opium to China from their Indian plantations. Understandably the Chinese objected to this and when the arrested British opium dealers the British went to war and won. The second Opium War included the French who wanted in on the profits. The US was late to the game but after we had finished stealing North America from the First Nations we were ready to move out into the world so we came up with the Open Door Policy which meant everyone got a equal share of the spoils. And get in on the spoils we did. Many of the famous and respected of Yankee families got their start in the Chinese opium trade . Remember this the next time some politician blathers on about the ‘Drug War’.

A Little Music To Close The Night

If we’re in Hell we’re going to burn



While we’re here we should havesome sympathy for the devil

Random Thoughts As I Try To Sleep

For some reason I have been having trouble sleeping so you get the joy of my disconnected thoughts, lucky you.

I am a coward on many levels, not so much physical as emotional. That is why I am out to only select people. Not that I would ever deny who and what I am if asked but I have barely transitioned so it doesn’t come up. Most of the reason for my oh so slow transition is my fear of confrontation with those close to me. See, a coward.

I have a friend who has reached his limit. Too many people asking too much of him. He has done much for me and I feel useless to him right now. And so I make it about me again, fuck it all I want is to take his pain away and I can’t.

I despair at my fellow humans stupidity. We can all be stupid at times but right now we seem to be having a monumental outbreak of stupid. In the midst of recovering from a worldwide recession these cretins want to implement austerity. Yes that’s just what fragile economies need pulling a few billions out of them and knocking thousand into unemployment. Apparently they do not read history or they would know FDR made the same mistake moving to austerity just when the economy was picking up steam and sending back into recession. Now they want to repeat the error on a global scale. Hang on it’s going to be a bumpy ride.

A Few More Reasons To Celebrate

I quite liked listing successful trans people so here are a few more.

Genesis Breyer P-Orridge gender queer pandrogynous musician, performer, artist and wrecker of civilization. Sylvia Rivera latina activist, Stonewall rioter and founding member of The Gay Liberation Front. Without her there would probably be no TBLG rights in this country. We should honor her by destroying the Human Rights Campaign. Billy Tipton jazz musician and band leader.

Quite simply there are a lot of trans women, trans men and gender queers who have fought the long odds and managed to carve out careers and families in a hostile world. Now we want the right to live our lives openly as who we are, we won’t give up and we’re tougher then you can imagine.

The Friday Random Thirteen Is Back

Tuff Baby – Iggy Pop
Mass Production – Iggy Pop
Black Magic – Slayer
Sirius – Clannad
Break It Up – Patti Smith
Come Go With Me – The Beach Boys.
Sexy Boy – Kinky Boyz
Broken Arrow – Buffalo Springfield
Nobody Gives – The Kinks
Iron Head – Rob Zombie
Crazy Love – The Allman Brothers Band
The Jean Genie – David Bowie
Safe European Home – The Clash

On Being A Un-Person

In the dystopian world of Oceania the worst fate was to become a un-person. Not only did you disappear you had never been. All record of your existence was erased.

Trans people face this fate all the time. If we are lucky our deaths are reported as ‘man living as woman’, if not we are ‘gay men found in woman’s clothing’ or ‘masculinly dressed women.’ We are buried under the wrong name with the wrong gender pronoun. Our lived existence is erased, who we really were is gone and we become un-person’s. We are forced to fight for our trans sibling’s identities so they can be remembered as who they were not as some bigoted relatives wanted them to be.

I just became aware of a nasty new turn to this erasing of our chosen identities, a greedy relative trying to re-write the narrative of a life while the person is still alive albeit gravely ill. Catherine Ryan Hyde is trying to appropriate Gender Warrior Leslie Feinberg’s identity. Please read Feinberg’s impassioned post and reblog it. Fight the un-person movement directed at trans people.

Looking For The Bright Side

I’m looking for the bright side of life but having trouble finding it right now. Chrissie Bates murdered and then defamed by the media. Three of my trans sisters murdered in as many days in Honduras. The constant slander that we are all sexual predators who will use any legal recognition of our rights to assault women in bathrooms. Not really a lot of bright side there.

But then I remember those of us who have not merely survived but triumphed. Victoria Kolakowski who made history by becoming the first out tras woman elected to the bench. Lynn Conway groundbreaking computer scientist. Jamie Fenton who helped ot your mind by designing video games. Jeffrey Catherine Jones award wining artist. Vladimir Luxuria Italian actress and politician. Caroline Paige RAF fighter pilot. Parinya Kiatbusaba Mut Thai champion, actress and model. All these very successful trans women and many more are a inspiration to us all. They sow we can not merely survive but triumph. A very bright side indeed.